Done for Good

I’m not a bet you should’ve ever placed
No, I’m a truth you should’ve never faced
If I were you I’d stay the hell away from me from now for good

But for some reason you keep coming back
Shining eyes, a new plan of attack
As if you know me like nobody else ever really could

Remember dancing down the boulevard?
Everyone took shelter, it was raining hard
We were giggling like star-crossed runaways in a Hollywood heist scene

Remember kissing when no one was home?
Smell of sun and sweat and cheap cologne
Remember crying on my shoulder—your dad said something he didn’t mean

Wish I could take you in my arms
And tell you everything will be alright
Give you all the things you want
Lazy Sundays, kids, and paper kites
Building forts and shoveling snow
In a December wind that digs and bites
Whipping custard with egg-yolks
Making cookies with the leftover egg-whites
I’m sorry dear, I really wish I could
But I think this time we’re really done for good

I’m not a taste that anyone acquires
I’m many things, but I am not a liar
I told you everything I wanted and I needed from the start

I’m a poison you keep drinking in
You’re pure as hell and I’m your cardinal sin
You think our life’s a pretty little play and you can orchestrate our parts

Remember fighting like we invented it?
Found every weak spot, leaned into every hit
Remember hours spent in silence as we digested what we’d said

Remember the sharp sting of our remorse?
When we finally spoke the word ‘divorce’
Took the pulse of our silly dreams and found them cold and dead

Won’t you take me in your arms
And whisper everything will be alright
Don’t care what it is you say
Could be false and lame and cheap and trite
I won’t listen very hard
No more judgements or the good old spite
Remember driving in the dark?
Empty streets glowing in the moonlight
I’m sorry love, I really wish you could
But I think this time we’re really done for good