Imposter

I’m not the best person I can be
That much I can pretty much guarantee
I spend too much time trapped in my own head
Where my selfish hopes and daunting dreams are fed

I’m not good at keeping in touch with friends
And even worse at budgeting the money I spend
Parrot all the talking points I hear
Pretend that I’m not limping through life in fear

That I’ll be found out
Finally seen
As the imposter
That I’ve always been

Found out
Exposed
As the imposter
That I’ve always known

I’m not good at parking in tight spots
Don’t mention public speaking, I’d rather be shot
My clever retorts are always minutes late
Sometimes I confuse cities with states

Waste half my time aimless on my phone
Instead of on those skills I’d love to hone
Happiness, I’ll find it in a year
Meditate, sedate, silence the fear

That I’ll be found out
Finally seen
As the imposter that I’ve always been

Found out
Exposed
As the imposter that I’ve always known

They say fake it till you make it
If it ain’t broke then break it
If you want something, take it
I’d like to take my time

Don’t miss the forest for the trees
Dot your I’s and cross your T’s
Seize all your opportunities
Don’t matter if they’re right
Don’t let yourself fall behind

But I’d like to take my time
To fall softly behind
Seek life of every kind
Taste the sweet sunshine
Resist the call to climb
Every ladder I can find

It’s the blind leading the blind
Leading the blind
Leading the blind
Leading the blind